I claimed this as a positive space, but today I’m breaking the rules ❌
We often avoid the truth sometimes because it’s ugly, it’s negative or it’s painful.. or all three!
We mask our true feelings to protect ourselves and others from being hurt. We unconsciously lie about who we really are and what we really want because we’re different… and we haven’t learnt how to accept that yet.
We are afraid of even the simplest of tasks, like going outside and having a conversation with another human, as we feel inadequate to perform normally and then guilty for the discomfort they experience as a result of being around us.
We are the reserved, often mistaken as rude and awkward individuals as we struggle to really open up and connect with others in a deep and meaningful way, yet those are the kind of relationships we really want.
We have too high expectations of ourselves that are almost impossible for anyone to live up too and we are so far from ever being “good enough” that we often quit before we even start.
We don’t know how to love ourselves freely without seeming modest and arrogant as we care too much about the opinions of others and even ourselves, yet we know that that’s exactly what’s needed to live peacefully ✌🏾
We want to take care of others and help change the world for the better but we can’t even take care of ourselves.
None of this is us though… it’s our illness. It’s our depression & anxiety.
The good news for us – we can heal 🧚♀️
I was almost ready to give up, but since writing this I instantly feel like a weight has been lifted off of my shoulders.
I don’t mean to put it on yours, I just hope to be one of the people that can come out of all of this and pull others out with me, by being more open about these horrible illnesses.
If you’re lost, like me, know that you’re not alone and know that this isn’t your fault. Hold hope in your heart that you will find a way to live the life you dream of, the very life you deserve.
I pray for you to have that life one day soon.